Tuesday, June 2, 2020

Queen of Denial

I want to keep my posts real on here and Instagram as I document my progress getting back to where I want to be health-wise. The thing is I'm not sure I even know where that is anymore. I posted the other day on Instagram about how I wanted to be comfortable in my own body and I was ok with gaining a little weight to do that, but now I'm wondering if that was a lie.
Out of curiosity I stepped on the scale and was shocked by the readout. I'm 139 lbs which isn't bad, I
know, but like I told DK the last time I was this heavy I was pregnant. When I weighed myself in October of last year, that was the last time I remember weighing myself. It was when we got May and wanted to know how much she weighed so I weighed myself then got on the scale holding her to... well you get the idea and I'm getting off-topic. I was 125 lbs then so I gained around 15 lbs over the Winter. I try to not obsess over my weight, or how I look, but let's be honest I'm also female and it's kinda in our nature.
The shock got me thinking about all the small signs that I had ignored or explained away. A girl at work telling me I'd gotten some "junk in my trunk". I'd laughed it off and blamed my pants. Clothes fitting differently. Well, the manufacturers are making clothes sizes smaller, to make people feel better. Yes, I convinced myself that it was some manufacturing conspiracy that I no longer fit into a small. See why the title now. When my pants from last summer were to tight to button, I was like oh well I'm eating more because I'm not having as many stomach problems and I'm bloated.
After taking some time and thinking about it I'm not as upset as when I saw the scale. I mean I spent almost two years trying to bulk and now I'm over my goal weight. I look better, healthier, and feel better. Ironically all it took was sitting on my butt for 8 months eating crap and playing video games while sporadically working out. I'm still unsure of how I really feel about all this, mainly due to my own preconceived notions, insecurities, and yeah some ingrained societal issues.
I do know I don't want my journey to become all about numbers and not my health. I think I'm going to be staying away from the scale for a while, while it's a tool we can use it's also can mess with someone mentally.
So now I'm curious, how do you all feel about the scale and how do you use it on your journey to get healthy?

Sunday, May 31, 2020

Weekly Wrap Up


Well, there's not much to talk about this week, which is nice. Work is starting to calm down, although I worry. With all that's going on that guys are going to start coming in and wanting stuff done as fast as possible due to Trump wanting to deploy troops. Although we are extending our hours and having people work longer so maybe we'll be able to handle it (knock on wood). Ok enough of that, here's how my week went...

Sunday: Tried to squeeze in a quick run in the morning all though it didn't go as planned. I wanted to hit the trail by 9 with the pup. Got out at 9:05 and the trail was being mowed so we ran around the yard. Dropped off the pup and did hill repeats for another 10 mins. Time sucked but at least I got it in.


Mon: Rest day- Yes I missed a Monday! 
Tuesday: Got in a 5k today. I was really happy I was able to log it for the Un-canceled project as I haven't been able to get the site to load for the last few weeks. Is anyone else having trouble getting the site to load or is it just me?


Weds: Kettlebells!
Forward fold into downward dog into plank then back up
Ski squat 20lbs x 10 reps x 1 set
Sumo squats to press 20 lbs x 10 reps x 1 set
Curls to overhead press 10 lbs x 10 reps x 1 set each arm
Rows to triceps ext 10 lbs x 10 reps x 1 set each arm
Kettlebell swings 20 lbs x 30 reps x 1 sets
Russian twists 20 lbs x 20 reps x 1 set
Toe touch 20 reps x 1 set
Bicycle crunch 50 reps x 1 set
Cooldown stretch

Thursday: Workout out with my buddy, this morning. I got out the weights but was kinda pressed for time as I got up late, had stuff to do and we had to run a few errands before work. I slated 30 mins to do this, so I did each workout to fatigue for 1 set and the only rest I got was changing out weights.
Warm-up Dynamic stretch
Bodyweight- 
-Squats 10 reps
-Pile Squats 10 reps
-Static Squats 10 reps
-Pulse squats 10 reps
-Pop Squats 10 reps
Barbell Squats 50 lbs x 18 reps x 1 set/ 55 lbs x 13 reps x 1 set
Deadlifts 100 lbs x 10 reps x 1 set (this was a PR for me)
Standing overhead tricep ext 20 lbs x 25 reps x 1 set
Standing alt curls 20 lbs x 8 reps x 1 set
-Bench Dips 21 reps
-Incline Push up 21 reps
Russian Twist 20 lbs x 23 reps x 1 set
-Bike Crunch 70 reps
-Toe Toucher 40 reps
-Plank 30 secs
Yoga Cool Down

Friday: Pushed myself to run over 4 miles, was aiming for an 8K, and got it.
Saturday: Just walking the dog with the Hubby. 1.5 miles. I wasn't feeling all that well. 
Sunday: I'm still not feeling 100% and my body aches something fierce, so I'll be taking today as a rest day. 

Is anyone else having issues with the Un-Canceled site? It bums me out I was really enjoying those. 

I'm linking up with the Weekly Run Down, please head over to visit Kim and Deborah and check it out. 

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Thursday, May 28, 2020

{Pre-Workout Review} Ghost Legend Pre Workout

 I received a sample as part of my JackedPack.

So I received the Fruit Punch Ghost Legend in my JackedPack and the Blue Raspberry in a previous one but I figured I just do a twofer. The fruit punch one tasted like Hawaiian Punch but with a medicinal after taste.


I liked the blue raspberry one, it was like blue raspberry pixie-stixs, and didn't have the after taste. Both mixed very well with no sediment floating around.
I didn't get a rush from this but I know it kicked in as I got that tell-tale tingle in my face which moved to my hands. It drove me nuts during my run. I got in a decent workout, but didn't feel any extra pump. There was no crash after, which is always good though. Over all ok, but I'd look elsewhere for extra energy

Wednesday, May 27, 2020

{Comic Book Review} Supergirl, Volume 1: Reign Of The Cyborg Super-Men (Supergirl: Rebirth #1)

Supergirl, Volume 1: Reign Of The Cyborg Super-Men (Supergirl: Rebirth #1)
by Steve Orlando (Writer), Brian Ching (Artist), Emanuela Lupacchino (Penciler), Ray McCarthy (Inker), Michael Atiyeh (Colourist), Steve Wands (Letterer)
Publish: DC Comics
Release: April 4th, 2017
Genre: Fiction- Teen: Superhero, Action

Supergirl moves to National City! As Kara Danvers, an average American teenager and high school student, Supergirl must balance her life as a superhero with her new life on Earth. But some demons from her Kryptonian past are coming back to haunt her, and Kara will find herself face-to-face with her father: the sinister Cyborg Superman!

Critically acclaimed writer Steve Orlando (Midnighter) comes a new beginning for Kara Zor-El in Supergirl, Volume 1, Reign Of The Cyborg Super-Men a new series that is sure to appeal to fans of the TV series!

Collecting: Supergirl 1-6, Rebirth

Review: I've never been a big Superman fan, he was overpowered and way too emo. Unfortunately, I found Kara to be just the teen female version of Superman. Which made me really disappointed as I was hoping for a strong, relatable female superhero. I got that she was homesick and missing her family, friends, etc. but it didn't feel like she was even trying to give Earth a chance. Her new parents try hard to give her what she needs, yet at every turn, she shuts them down. They even support her when her cyborg father shows up and wants her to come home.
The story was good, the artwork wonderful but Kara as a character was just to angst-ridden and mopy. The entire book made me remember why I don't like the Supers.



Sunday, May 24, 2020

Weekly Wrap Up


It's been a long week. I'm seriously digging the nice weather, Saturday I had the day off and spent about an hour or longer just laying in a lounger in the yard listening to an audiobook. It was so nice, although I look like a lobster now. I, unfortunately, do not have a long weekend I have to work today. We have no plans for Memorial Day. Although I always feel like I should do something. When I was little my Mom would buy a flat of flowers and we'd spend the day going to the cemeteries cleaning family members graves and planting flowers. I remember enjoying looking at the different headstones and sometimes Mom would tell us stories about whoever's grave we were at. It was a nice way to remember people in our family who'd passed on. Ok enough depressing stuff here is my week...


Monday: Dragged Hubby out for a 2.28-mile walk, then did 30 mins with the weights.
Squats 50 lbs x 10 reps x 2 sets / 55 lbs x 10 reps x 1 set
Deadlifts 75 lbs x 10 reps x 3 sets
Standing Overhead Tri Ext 20 lbs x 10 reps x 3 sets
Rows 20 lbs x 10 reps x 2 sets each arm
Curls 10 lbs x 10 reps x 2 sets each arm
Dips 10 reps x 2 sets
Toe Toucher 20 reps x 1 set
Bicycle Crunches 50 x 1 set
Russian twist 20 lbs x 20 reps x 1 set
yoga stretch / cool down

Tuesday:
Forward fold into downward dog into plank then back up
Ski squat to press 20lbs x 10 reps x 1 set
Pile squat 20 lbs x 10 reps x 1 set
Curls 10 lbs x 10 reps x 1 set each arm
Rows 20 lbs x 10 reps x 1 set each arm
kettlebell swings 20 lbs x 20 reps x 2 sets
Toe toucher 20 reps x 1 set
bicycle crunch 50 reps x 1 set
Cooldown stretch
Banged this out in 15 mins because it's was a work morning and I was crunched for time.

Weds: 30 Minute Yoga for Strength (Shireen Kavianian) | Fightmaster Yoga Videos
You have chosen poorly! This was the thought running through my head while I was doing this workout. I really wasn't feeling it... I was tight and sore. So I thought it's a good yoga day, but I wanted something that was still going to be a bit of a challenge. Boy did I get a challenge... About half, ok less than half, way through I was thinking about tossing in the towel but didn't. I did have to modify a few poses, although that was partly because I didn't have the equipment eg a belt and wall space. I have to admit that I'm glad I didn't give up.

Thursday: Ran 3.11 miles and then Yoga cool down.

  
Fri: Decided on a recovery day. Some foam rolling and yoga.
Simple flow
Forward fold
Downward dog
Pigeon pose
Downward dog
Cobra
Downward Dog
Walking back to forward fold
Foam rolling and working out kinks with a tennis ball.

Sat: Ran the Raven virtual 5k. Added to the sun burn and oh my goodness was it hot, but I loved it!

Well that's all I got for this week what sort of plans do you have for Memorial day and if your back to work are you getting a long weekend?

I'm linking up with the Weekly Run Down, please head over to visit Kim and Deborah and check it out. 

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Thursday, May 21, 2020

{Pre-Workout Review} NFP Gear IC Red (Fruit Punch Flavor)

 I received a sample as part of my JackedPack

I drank half the glass before remembering to take a picture. 
This wasn't bad. According to the directions for your first time taking it you should do half a dose, which is half a package. I mixed half the package with 8 oz of water per directions. It didn't mix very well leaving crud on the bottom of my glass, and we all know how I hate that. 

Sediment at bottom of the glass
After having bad experiences drinking the sediment at the bottom I passed on this one. The taste wasn't bad, kinda like a watered-down Kool-aid. It took about 30 mins to kick in and then it was a very slight energy boost. Honestly, the only reason I know it kicked in is the light tingling in the side of my face. I've had this side effect happen before so I know it was the pre-workout, yet it only lasted a few minutes.
Now maybe I didn't use enough but giving my body weight, usually, it only takes half a dose to achieve the desired effects. Perhaps I should have drunk the crud in the bottom, but ugh.
Overall this would not be my first choice of pre-workouts.

Wednesday, May 20, 2020

{Movie Review} Resident Evil: Vendetta

When a fearless enemy out for revenge unleashes a brutal and deadly new virus, BSAA captain Chris Redfield enlists the help of Agent Leon S. Kennedy and Professor Rebecca Chambers to bring down the death merchant and save New York City.

Rating: R
Genre:  Animation, Horror, Action, Adventure
Director: Takanori Tsujimoto
Writers: Makoto Fukami (screenplay), Joe McClean (adaptation)
Runtime: 1h 37min
Production Companies: Capcom Company, Marza Animation Planet

Review: DK and I watched this the other night and it was amazing. It harkens back to the old school Resident Evil games, where you were shooting zombies and maybe a few crazy mutants. The best thing to compare it to is one long, action-packed cutscene.

Things I wasn't thrilled with: Actually, there wasn't much that bothered me except the character design for Chris and Leon. Leon looked like a douchie pretty boy, while Chris was a 'roided army man. Of course, as DK reminded me, Chris did punch a rock to death (RE5) so I guess he needed to be a bit 'roided for that. My one other issue was with Rebecca, she'd gone through the whole zombie thing before and was a member of S.T.A.R.S with that training under her belt. So why did she freak out so much when the zombies started coming after her?  I mean she's dealt with these things before.

Things I liked: The graphics were so good that at times it looked real. The story was like the plot of one of the games. I liked the Chris and Leon team up, I also liked that they brought back Rebecca. The game and previous movie references were a great little treat for any Resident Evil fan. Lots of action, blood, and gore, just what you'd expect from this franchise.

Conclusion: I feel this is a must-see for any old school Resident Evil fans. If you liked the earlier Resident Evil games then I think you'll really enjoy this movie.



Tuesday, May 19, 2020

{Recipe} Nuka Quantum


This is the recipe that started it all and took the longest to get perfect. J and C love FallOut, Nuka Cola Quantum is one of the consumables in the game. It's a kind of soda for those who don't play and gives you Hit Points +400, Action Points +100 & Rads +5.
"In 2077, a new version called Nuka-Cola Quantum was introduced. According to the advertisements, it had twice the calories, twice the carbohydrates, twice the caffeine and twice the taste. To make it stand out more on the shelves and to give it an extra kick, the Quantum included a mild radioactive strontium isotope[1] (and an eighteenth fruit flavor - pomegranate). The effect was a drink that not only boosted your energy, but also glowed with a bright blue light. While no ill effects were recorded by the Food and Drug Administration, the isotope also caused the drinker's urine to glow for almost a week."

Well my version is not radioactive and no your pee will not glow for a week, but it does glow bright blue*.


Ingredients:
2 Cups triple berry flavored seltzer water
1 3/4 Cups Sprite
3 drops blue food coloring
1 drop green food coloring

Directions:
Combine in a container, and enjoy. 


*Disclaimer: The soda does not actually glow there is a tiny LCD light in the indentation of the Gatorade bottle. 

Sunday, May 17, 2020

Weekly Wrap Up



This week was not great. Work is getting hectic and stressful. Homelife is stressful. Basically, everything is normal. 

Mon: Rest day but ended up walking 2.33 miles at work
Tues: 3.23 miles in 28:04 mins
Weds: 3.10 miles in 27:09 mins plus 
Kettlebell swings
Rows
Dynamic Stretching

Thurs: 30 mins of Kettlebells this morning. No rest in between sets just banged it out.
Dynamic stretching/warm-up
Ski squats 20 lbs x 10 reps x 1 set
Sumo Squats + Press 20 lbs x 10 reps x 2 sets
Pulse Squats 20 reps
Static Squats 30 secs
Single-Leg Deadlift 20 lbs x 20 reps x 1 set each leg
Windmills 20 lbs x 10 reps x 2 sets each leg
Kettle Bell swings 20 lbs x 30 reps x 1 set
Curls to Overhead press 10 lbs x 20 reps x 1 set
Tricep Ext to Close row 10 lbs x 20 reps x 1 set
Russian twist 20 lbs x 20 reps x 1 set
Scissor kicks 20 reps x 1 set
Toe Touchers 30 reps x 1 set
Bike Cycle Crunches 50 reps x 1 set
Yoga stretch / cool down



Friday: Yoga



Sat: I really wasn't feeling it but ended up dragging myself, the hubby and dog out for a walk total of 2.04 miles. 

I'm writing this on Sun but haven't actually worked out yet, planing on a quick run and weights but we'll see what happens. So how was your week?

I'm linking up with the Weekly Run Down, please head over to visit Kim and Deborah and check it out. 

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Thursday, May 14, 2020

{Protein Powder Review} MuscleMeds Carnivor Shred (Chocolate)


Disclaimer: I received a sample as part of my JackedPack to review for free.  As always, all opinions are my own.


When I saw this in my JackedPack I was a bit skeptical, beef protein? Then I though what the hey. I admit after mixing it up I hesitated, it didn't look that great and I had to wonder about the taste. Again beef protein?
It actually sort of looked a little like beef bullion, since I used water to mix.
So I was extremely surprised when it not only tasted good, it tasted like chocolate. No beefy after taste. I'm not a big chocolate person, but I really liked this. I drank it after a long run, and it filled me up so I wasn't hungry for a while.  It mixed really well, no sediment floating around on top. It does have caffeine in it so take that into consideration. Possibly take it before your workout for a little kick, if needed.

Wednesday, May 13, 2020

{Video Game Review} BioShock





Description: BioShock is set in 1960 in the underwater city of Rapture; the city's history is mostly revealed via audio recordings the player can collect during the game. Rapture was planned and constructed in the 1940s by Objectivist business magnate Andrew Ryan who wanted to create a utopia for society's elite to flourish outside of government control. Scientific progress greatly expanded, including the discovery of the genetic material "ADAM" created by sea slugs on the ocean floor. ADAM allows its users to alter their DNA to grant them super-human powers like telekinesis and pyrokinesis. To protect Rapture, Ryan imposed a law that no contact with the surface world was allowed.
Despite the apparent utopia, class distinctions grew, and former gangster and businessman Frank Fontaine used his influence of the lower class to plan a coup over Rapture. Fontaine profited by creating black market routes with the surface world, and together with Dr. Brigid Tenenbaum, created a cheap plasmid industry by mass-producing ADAM through the implantation of the slugs in the stomachs of orphaned girls, nicknamed "Little Sisters". Fontaine used his plasmid-enhanced army to attack Ryan, but reportedly was killed in the battle. Ryan took the opportunity to seize his assets including the plasmid factories. In the months that followed, a second figure named Atlas rose to speak for the lower class, creating further strife. Atlas led attacks on the factories housing the Little Sisters, and Ryan countered by creating "Big Daddies", plasmid-enhanced humans surgically grafted into giant lumbering diving suits who were psychologically compelled to protect the Little Sisters at all costs. Ryan also created his own army of plasmid-enhanced soldiers, named "Splicers", which he controlled using pheromones distributed through Rapture's air system.


Overview: BioShock is a narrative-driven first person shooter, that allows players to do the impossible as they journey through an amazing, immersive and terrifying world. Caught between powerful forces and hunted down by genetically mutated citizens, the player will come to grips with the mysterious and fascinating world of Rapture, a distinct Art Deco underwater utopia gone mad. BioShock not only challenges the player's' capacity to adapt and survive, but brings to question their values and commitment to the inhabitants of Rapture.
Originally released in October of 2008 by 2k Games. It is rated M for Mature due to blood and gore, drug reference, intense violence, sexual themes, and strong language.


Review: When I first started playing BioShock I wasn't crazy about it. I tend to play video game as a way to unwind and zone out. Unlike the other games I've played you kinda of have to be on your toes when play. The Splicers are actually pretty fast and tend to sneak up on you. I wasn't used to having to aim quiet so on target either, which irritated me at first. Figuring out how to work through the attacks, was a learning curve. Of course the more I played the more I became used to the controls and got better at aiming. After awhile I came to like the game. While I couldn't zone out to play it, it had a certain quiality that I enjoyed.
I really liked the feel of the game, the 40's/ 50's time period vibe mixed with science fiction was interesting. I do wish we could have heard more of the sound track as I really like that era music. The story was ok, but since the game seemed to be on rails once you finish I don't see how there is much replay value. Unless of course you just enjoy the game itself then you can play it over and over. Overall an enjoyable game if you like post apocolyptic sci fi first person shooters then totally pick this up.



Tuesday, May 12, 2020

Healthy Meal Prep Lunches Bento Style

So with being back to work, I'm trying to meal prep more so that I have more time in the morning to workout as well as making sure I have healthy stuff to eat. Here are some lunches I've collected to use over the upcoming weeks.

Tuna Protein Box lined up in meal prep containers

Tuna Protein Box: This is super simple and easy to make it covers all the basics. As well as being packed with protein.


Sushi Sandwiches: I love these because they're cute and easy to make.


No Cook Taco Salad Bento Box Recipe for Adults
No Cook Taco Salad Bento Box Recipe:  I love taco salad! While usually, I would add meat, this is a great summer option.
Tex-Mex Bento Box Carolyn A. Hodges, R.D.
Tex-Mex Bento Box: Quesadillas are super easy and so yummy. 

Egg Salad Bento Lunch Stacy Fraser

Egg Salad Bento Lunch: Ok so egg salad is one of my favorite things. Adding some fruit and veggies makes this a healthy lunch. 


I'm hoping by making sure I have healthy options ready and available it will help me keep from grabbing junk as I have done in the past.